Yeah.

Hostility, avoiding eye contact, awkwardness.

I didn't even like losing you, friend

But I know this separation is for our own good.

God, search my heart and smooth out the "creases" in my little heart.



I PLAYED DAVID ARCHULETA'S SONG!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday,

Went to ICA with dad to report the loss of my... HEH HEH. Ask me okay. I am not going to disclose here.

Went to the information counter.

There was this Caucasian man infront of me.

I was taking a peek at his passport to see what passport he carries ( KAYPOH)

I saw that he has the same passport as me. I kept looking at him hoping that he will look at me too. WHAHAHHAHAHA -> when you see your own country men, you will naturally get excited ( quoted from my mama). YEAH!

And really, He looked at my passport then looked at me for awhile.

I think he must be thinking, this chinese woman.. Shes sure she hasn't got the wrong passport ?

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA. what the heck.

If I were a blonde or a negro carrying that passport, perhaps he'll strike a conversation with me.

Perhaps its my colour hur. Thats why its funny to strike a conversation like that even though we're both from the same nation.

AHH, country.

When, can I go home and stay there for good? I haven't stepped foot on my country's soil and land for 15 years. gosh ~

Sort of an identity crisis. Whenever people ask me my nationality, its kinda hard to explain it.

The reason why I typed this is because, just now dad and I were watching Bloom or CNN i forgot. It shows some US news and dad was educating me about the US dollar and China Dollar, you know that kinda stuff how its currency is going down, why it goes down and all that kinda stuff. It would confuse everyone if I were to type it all out so I better not =X hahaha.

Then he told me, you call yourself an American ah? See I know all these and you don't know. Ask you don't go out so much right, learn more stuff.

Diao..~ okay..

Yar so it struck a chord in my heart. How have I been contributing to my own country? Not to say CONTRIBUTING, wow such a huge word eh. But, how much do I know about my own country? American History?American Economics? American's political issues? How well have I been doing in knowing all these?

I think I don't really know. I only know Jesse Mccartney is from NY, David Archuleta is from Utah, what else eh? My beloved President is coming to Singapore for the APEX meeting soon this month. I know theres Democrats and Republicans. Beloved President belongs to Democrats, George Bush is in Republican side. Republicans are usually more conservative as compared to Democrats in Politics. I know that US citizens are issued a Social Security number. I know how a US flag looks like. 51 states = 51 stars. What else ! ?!!??!! gosh.

Die already. I think I need to equip myself more!

Sigh. Kinda home sick here. Sorry about it. Its just a natural instinct to be curious of your birthplace, your own nation and how is it like living back there.I have been thinking for quite some time, how is it like to live in US as an American, and how's life there, people there, culture there. Though I have lived here for a great deal of years and its like Singapore brought me up, but heh this is still not my real home eh?

I am grateful for what Singapore has provided me though. (:

I once asked mama.

MAMA, do you think US will disown me? I have been away for so long. Will they cancel my citizenship?

Then she said, you imagine if Your kid ran away from home for many years and got raised by another parent, however the kid is still your own kid. Why would you disown the kid?

HRM~ lol.

AIYOH! gosh.

Whenever people ask me about my nationality, I just feel a bit hesitant to share because its so complicated.

BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT !

I know i must say it PROUDLY!

*ROARS*~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hVncVzx8cCM

- hehehe. JM! (:

Well!

Yeah I am working at SGH now! First of all, I am still working as a Pharmacy Assistant!

Pack drugs and all that for the patients according to the prescription! Its pretty easy but its fun to cut the blister pack into pieces to fulfil the number of capsules/tablets stated on the prescription! Been doing this for a while.

I've got really wonderful senior pharmacists guiding me, and a really nice preceptor! Her name is May and she is from Myanmar. When I told mom about it, she was so excited! Because mom is actually born in Myanmar and originated from Myanmar. However there was a rule in the past stating that if you leave Myanmar, you are no longer a Myanmar citizen. Thats why she emigrated to Taiwan and became a Taiwanese! Mom asked me to ask her which part of Myanmar she is from and she said Mandalay! I went home to relay to her and she was so excited because she lived in Mandalay too! I told May about it and she was really excited too. This thing is just so cool! hahahhhaha (:

May is very patient and she is someone who really makes sure I learn. She will come with a list and then she will tell me, Hey I wanna show you something, Hey I wanna teach you something. Then she will bring me round and round and talk to me about a lot of things, and how to use a lot of things. Wow she is just so cool! I always think that the attitude of a student who is going for attachment should be, always inquisitive, always asking questions and running after the preceptor for knowledge. However in SGH, it is not like that! The preceptors run to us to FEED us with knowledge! How cool is that!

However I feel a little uneasy! I think that I should be running to them instead of them running to me and I really feel bad somehow.

In this span of 4 days, I really learnt a lot! May gave me a lot of opportunities and even put me at the reception to observe how Jade work. Jade is a Filipino senior (: hahaha. So I helped Jade to photocopy some prescriptions and help her. I sat by her to observe how she handle the prescriptions and talk to patients. Sat there for like 1 hour. It was fun!

I also had a really good supervisor called Ban Seng. He is always treating us really really well! Us= Wei si and I. Wei Si is my partner in the SOC ( Specialized Outpatient Clinic). I think he is really pampering us because he is always showing us stuff, asking us to sit down infront of the computer and look through slides and then teaching us stuff. He never gets impatient with us and always wanna make us feel welcomed.

HAI SEH! Attachment is just so much like in heaven! I don't know why! Its like .. ahh I know its too early to say this but 4 days has been really enjoyable and not stressed up at all! Everyone's nice! Though, sometimes maybe a little bit of emotions all that because of the stressful environment and the no. of patients.

Theres this senior pharmacist, she wants us to stay back for awhile to read some slides too. Some pharmacist complain saying that it is past our ( Wei si and I's) working hour and then she should let us go back. However, though its true , I feel that if a senior wants to equip us with more knowledge, WHY NOT~ ! ahahahhha and its good knowledge too. (: Then she went back with WS and I and she shared to me about her life and all that.. awesome!

Ahh, I really like it here man. SGH's people are all very helpful and patient.

OKAY.. I know its just first 4 days, but its been good so far.

No matter what may come, I will be thick skinned enough to take it.

Because , I don't know after this attachment, will I be able to continue PHARMACY or not.

I kinda feel a little bad. Because I have doubts on whether overseas universities will accept me so that I could continue to study Pharmacy. I like doing what I do now, even if it means packing drugs, thats alright. Even if it is simple drugs. Its a kind of joy. Well, haiiiiiis

Think I'll just enjoy doing what I do now. Hope I get a placement in the universities I applied.

PS : I made friends with other TP students doing attachment! We work together and we talk a lot. Totally awesome. They are fun and cool people too! (:

Off,
Emily

I HEART NAT GEO! (:

Especially shows like Aircraft Investigations!

This case particularly intrigues me!

part 1 :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7pbYkVe4e4&feature=related
part 2 :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eTxkGvW7nJg&feature=related
part 3 :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvRe6l_PEm0&feature=related
part 4:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8k6E_PpE0bg

Running on EMPTY! (:

ENJOY!

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